Twelve teachings the Elder wrote down but never published. Too personal for the book, too honest for the camera. One about a promise he broke. One about what most men die without ever saying out loud. Twenty pages of what he kept to himself. You were not supposed to read these.

Three long, unscripted pieces written with no outline and no revision. One about the men in his family. One about the mistakes he made with women. One about what he believes happens when we die — including a prayer he has said every evening for thirty years and never shared with anyone. The words that came when the camera was off.

Four questions the Elder has been asked more than any others. He has never answered them publicly. Have you ever stopped believing your own teachings? What do you regret most? What happens to desire after sixty? Who is the one person you never forgave? Answered once. In writing. Never again.